Coming Out as Transexual

My yokel poems are mostly about coming out to myself as transsexual.

The whole fairy-elf project is a thought experiment to explore the possibility of transsexuality for myself.

I first started thinking about transsexuality when I attended Youth Traditional Sing weekends in the middle of the last decade and was asked to write my preferred pronoun on my name badge. 

I was forced to experience the discomfort of writing "he-him," and the next year I realized that "they-then" felt much better.

My sexuality has always been focused on female images, but, most of all and more and more queerly, on myself as female, or as a man with girly feet.

My fairy elf character is queerly a woman with a penis (mazdo) that was really a vagina all along.

Eroticism itself is queer when it refuses to be rapey--in our Judeo-Christian society the only acceptable kind of eroticism is rape. 

Whoriness is healthier because the woman takes the initiative.


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